Lord, I'm Amazed By You

You dance over me , while I am unaware.  You sing all around, but I never hear the sound.

Lord, I'm amazed by You.  Lord, I'm amazed by You. 

Lord, I'm amazed by You. 

How You love me.

This is the song of my heart.  This is what He is teaching me right now in this journey of adoption - how deep and how wide is His love for me.  He is doing this through my love for Meilí. 

Meilí is not officially our daughter. I have never seen her face, never held her, never heard her cry for me.  She doesn't even know that I exist, and yet I love her with this crazy, unexplainable, indescribable love.  Just the thought of her brings tears to my eyes.  I have such a longing for her to be mine, to hold her in my arms, to kiss away her tears.  I want to tell her how much I miss her and how we have prayed for her.  I want her to know that she is fearfully and wonderfully made, and that God created her to be mine before time began.   

"How is this possible, to love someone so deeply that I have yet to meet?," I ask myself. 

Then I hear My Father whisper to my heart, "This is My love for you.  Before you were my child, before you even knew I existed, I loved you so much that I died to make you Mine.  I longed for you, longed to hold you in My arms and tell you of My love for you.  I wanted you to know that you have been fearfully and wonderfully made, and that I created you to be Mine before time began." 

And then I start to get it.  I get a glimpse of His great love, His Amazing Love, and it overwhelms me. I have done nothing that would merit this kind of love, yet He lavishes it upon me, His adopted daughter.  He loved me even before I was His.  And now, because of this, I cannot sing a song about His love without weeping.  I can't think about His dying to make me His without it breaking my heart.  My worship is different.  My life is different. 

And that is what adoption does-it changes lives.  

When God called us to adopt almost a year ago, we said yes, without reservation, without hesitation.  Our cry was, "Lord, just send us a child who needs love, and we will love her and give her a family."  We wanted to change a life, and yet it is ours that is being changed.  We so wanted to give but never realized how much God would give us in return.  Through adoption, He is giving us a glimpse of His great love for us.  He is giving us more of Himself.  And I am amazed by it.

Lord, I'm Amazed By You by Phillips, Craig, & Dean

Lord, I'm amazed by You. 

Lord, I'm amazed by You. 

Lord, I'm amazed by You. 

How You love me.