Wednesday, July 13, 2016

...and if not, He is still good.

"For it was You who created my inward parts;  You knit me together 
in my mother's womb.
I praise You because I have been remarkably and wonderfully made....
All my days were written in Your book 
And planned before a single one of them began."
Ps. 139:13-16

Sometimes life doesn't happen the way we think or hope.  Sometimes God's plans are vastly different than we were expecting.  
But it doesn't change who He is.
He is still good, and His promise are still true.  
Even in the midst of sorrow.

It's been almost three months since my sweet Seth went to be with Jesus.  My heart still aches for him.  I miss him deeply.  I want to hold him again, to tell him that he is a treasure and that I love him.  I grieve that fact that he will not come home to his family and that I will not see him again here.

This was not what I wanted.
This was not how I thought it would be.

But God knew.  
He had all of Seth's days planned before a single one of them began.
This did not catch Him by surprise.  
This was His good and perfect plan for Seth. 

And so, I choose to be thankful, even in the midst of sadness.
Thankful that God is good and strong and perfect.
Thankful that He is El Elyon, Most High God, sovereign over all things.
That He allowed me to know and love Seth.
And that I will see him again.

So, as much as I miss Seth, I cannot wish him back.
 He is whole and healed now.  He can see and run and play.  
He is loved perfectly and completely.
He is with Jesus.

I had the great and hard privilege of speaking at Seth's memorial service, and I love this beautiful Memorial video that we shared of him.  I love his precious family and count them as some of my dearest friends.  They are grieving deeply as well.


Sweet baby boy, you captured my heart from the moment I saw you.  My love for you was instant and overwhelming.  

I fought hard for you and prayed desperately for you, and God honored those prayers.  

He gave you a family.  

He moved you to a place filled with hope and love.

And he healed you, completely.

You will always be in my heart and never far from my thoughts.  I am so thankful for time I had with you and for the privilege of loving you.  
You were a treasure, hidden in the darkness, and I am so thankful that God let me find you.  I'll see you again soon.
All my love.

"For as the heaven are higher than the earth,
So are My ways higher than you ways 
And My thoughts than yours."
Isa. 55:9 

...and He is still good.